First of all, I want to start by saying that I am who I am today thanks to you.
I am thankful for the great education I got, not only academically but also as a human being.
I am grateful for all the beautiful sunny days I had growing up, and for all the gorgeous and unbelievable landscapes that you made part of my life.
I am thankful for all the delicious arepas, cachapas, hallacas, pabellones, empanadas, tequeños among all the many other dishes of your amazing cuisine.
And I’m thankful for all the amazing and happy people you have introduced me.
But… things are not going well
I cannot cope to live with a constant shortage of basic products,
I can’t stand the lack of medicines.
People are divided, and politics define you.
People have lost their sense of respect and values,
Intolerance grows proportional to corruption,
No one is held accountable for their actions.
Unemployment, and lack of opportunities surrounds us,
Thousands are being killed due to the high levels of crime and insecurity.
and You know what?
I don’t want to read all the nonsense news,
I am sick of politicians,
I can no longer bear with indifference,
I don’t want more deaths,
I dont’ want to be proud of living in the most dangerous city in the world,
So for now, I’m done here.
It breaks my heart, but this is not what I want for either of us. I want to make this work, but I need you to be willing to change.
A frustrated Venezuelan that never wanted to leave you
P.S. Whenever you are ready, I’ll come back to you.
This is me…
I’ve been feeling a lot of anger and pain. When I was there, I was desperate to have a promising future, and I could not see it happening if I stayed. So I decided to look for it somewhere else.
I know it may seem as if I am a coward for leaving when things got tough. I am more than enthusiastic to work for a better Venezuela for everyone, but I need to know the possibilities for a change are really there and I am not risking my life everyday.
At this moment, I have mixed feelings, I will always be proud of my roots but at the same time I am torn by the the current situation, of the government, and how everything is being handled.
The worst part is, what Venezuelans have to go through in their everyday life. It hurts that bullets are taking away the right of thousands of citizens to have a dream and fulfill their goals, because all they end up facing is death.
I will always wish for a better country, the safe Venezuela that my parents used to know; in which one we can actually live – not survive – and in one we are all willing to work for a better future.
There is not a day that goes by, that I don’t dream of going back to good old you…
Katy Da Silva